New Devotional: What I've Never Said Out Loud
Every single time I go to blogger conferences, I meet those folks who strategically plan their posts months in advance. They think carefully about their topics and write then re-write each post. Well, I'm not like that. It is 11pm on Sunday night and I'm writing this post right now with the intention of publishing it as soon as I am finished. I am not a planner, if I don't publish it, I will forget about it and it will disappear. I figure if it is being laid upon my heart right now then it is meant for right now so here it goes...
We all know as believers that we are to take 'every thought captive.' This basically means, we need to realize what we are thinking and make sure our thoughts agree with God's Word and line up with what God's will is for our lives. This keeps us from getting wrapped up in sinful thinking or stuck in fear or anything else that could tear down what God is building up in our lives.
I know this. You know this. We know this.
Today, I was driving to Walgreens at 8pm. I was tired. Rubbing my eyes and singing my songs, I stopped at a stoplight. I looked to the left of me to see a van full of people just staring at me. Staring.
"What are they looking at?" I wondered.
They kept staring as if I couldn't see them but I could. I tried looking away but you know how that goes, I had to look back. Then, my brain kicked in.
I looked awful and I felt even worse and the longer we sat at that stoplight the more convinced I was that I had just pulled up next to a crazy train. My brain went wild with thoughts like "Haven't you ever seen a woman drive a car?" Or "I wonder if I pick my nose if that would freak them out?" Yep, I thought that.
The light turned green.
Now, from the time I pulled up to that stoplight to the time it turned green was probably only a minute or two. It was a short amount of time. However, immediately, as I drove away, I felt convicted over the thoughts that had filled my mind.
Everyone has a 'real life' that they live amongst everyone else then, we all have a thought life. The thought life will manifest itself in real life if you are not careful.
If you think upon negative thoughts all day long, you will have a negative attitude. The same goes for positive thoughts which will reflect a more positive attitude.
We all have a thought life, some more active than others.
People like you for what they see and what they hear you say. But, what if they heard what you do not say? What if they heard what you really think? What if the people around you suddenly heard your fears? Your worries? What if someone plugged a microphone into your brain and all of your thoughts were played out loud? What would you do?
It dawned on me as I pulled into Walgreens that I worship a God who loves me even though he has heard every single thing that I have never said out loud.
Every thought. Every fear. Every worry. Every single entertainment of sin. He has heard everything, everything that you have not.
Yet he loves me still.
Now that is Amazing Love.
"We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:5